Jenni A.'s Page

After feeling better for about a week, I had a horrible day yesterday. Late last night I woke up to go to the bathroom and there was tons of bright red blood. I was having heavy cramping (what woke me up), so I went into the ER. They did an ultrasound and saw two babies, measuring about 7w4d but neither had heartbeats. I would have been over nine weeks pregnant,so their passing was inevitable I guess. I am feeling sort of at peace but still sad. Very strange to feel this…

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I spent the last few days really digging through the emails from interested couples. I whittled it down from 80 or so (yikes!) to 40 to 20 to 10 to 5. By time I hit five, I was overwhelmed! I took a day off, and started again the next day just concentrating on the first impressions I had of the five families that were left. I finally left it up to mother's intuition. Oddly, the couple I felt most connected to was NOT who I thought they would be. There was just something about them that…

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I see the little boxes lit up. I have come to understand that means someone else that is online is beckoning me to chat with them. I click the little box, their name and message pops up, but there is no place for me to type a response. So, I just shut it down. So, am I completely missing something or is it the chat function itself that is having issues? I am usually pretty savvy about these things but this has me stumped.

I love my partner (birthfather) very, very much but I am really frustrated and hurt. Last night while we were discussing couples interested in adopting this baby, he told me that he didn't want to have any involvement with the couple chosen. He will make himself available if there are questions only he can answer or if they want some sort of confirmation that he is onboard totally with placing this child. But other than that, he says, "This is your…

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